Tuesday, December 26, 2006
haha yes another long post to wrap everything up
thurs- 21dec
went out with karen... haha finally after so long for the both of us to meet... haha and some more that day was the last day of my black hair... woke up in the morning and realise i dont hav my wax... then since i'm meeting her at 3.30, i went down to compassvale to walk walk and got my wax... haha had a very very good style that day... mm went around walking in the already-so-boring orchard road... no christmas mood... haha... took neoprints... mm very nice ones... shall upload it on my next post... had ajisen too... nice chatting and the day ends with me so luckily saw this book for my mortal that has alot of cartoons for most situations like congrats,family,love, friends etc... then for every picture comes with a quote or a line that hold its meaning... haha very sweet de... was thinking that connie mj pf all see liao will oso wan... haha too bad only for my mortal... hope she likes it...
fri- 22dec
argh dye hair day... excited?? no... super nervous... haiz i'm always so nervous whenever i cut hair by a new hairstylist, new hair cut or now esp my 1st dye... the feeling sux... cos i'm really afraid of screwing up my hair... already low self confidence... cannot have a bad hair colour... mm went down to singpost around 10.30-11... mm spent alot of time thinking what to dye la... mm in the end the hairstylist help me chose the colour and give me a little free highlight on the fringe.... mmm then end product?? haha very satisfying... although still afraid people will say i beng la... but personally its very dark... even for the highlight... haha peifen and xinying were the 1st to see it and they say not bad... haha then followed by xinyu... mm walked around xinyu in the afternoon... haha her mood was bad la after the short amounts of sleep... mm in the end help her find what to buy for her mortal... haha and got the autographed zhen yuan chang's pic... bad lamination by the sales lady la... wasted...
sat- 23dec
meet out with felicia and weiting for lunch... i ate at home le then had to see them eat AJISEN... argh so hard to endure not eating a bowl la... weiting say she dun like my highlight... sad... haha then meet up with kokjing while we went down to be mr delivery man for stuff to peifen... mm so finally felicia and weiting meets peifen and peifen finally meets felicia and weiting... mm me and feli left for our class steamboat at marina... karen they all see my hair le say beng... heartbreak!! eat le then go orchard then go home... mm nth much...
sun- 24th dec christmas eve
mm meet xinyu to finish buying her mortal's stuff... mm met her at orchard mrt and ate at lunch... we went down to sommerset there to get her hat... then walked back to taka to sit down and chat but met this lady to promote her savings stuff... then went wisma for starbucks... haha it started raining so we asked peifen to come over and find us had coffee standing up cos there wasnt any space for us... mm went down to the 1st floor and we took photos!! haha peifen was so in the christmas mood that she brought her camera... mm walked around until the rain stops then me and xinyu went far east so as to not make xinyu's day an unfruitful 1 beisdes buying her mortal's prex... mm went there and she bought hairclips then we went to take neoprints!!
woot!! my 1st neoprint with the new hairstyle... haha very nice neoprint oso... haha then xinyu rushed to bugis to find her friend while i went back to find peifen... haha she sugested to stay for countdown... so ok lor stay lor den meet xinyu den pf dont feel like staying le but in the end we stayed and went down orchard road for the countdown... mm not very good stuff happened but in the end we had our small share of fun during the countdown and also while avoiding the battles and skidding our way out... mm then went home... suprise suprise no christmas mood...
mon- 26th dec christmas
mm since i slept 5.30-6am in the morning i woke up at 12.30pm realising that im gonna be late... rushed to bath and didnt really styled my hair but on my way out i was like thinking mm mayb i should try wearing my jacket for my white shirt... haha mm endure the heat lor... since not really gonna walk orchard most prob... haha so wear until very smart today la... still thinking about me perspiring too much but haha juz try to kep myself cool... mm met the rest and the 1st thing bei tian mj say was -beng- wah i was like a bit upset la... haha cos thats what i dont want my hair to be, although i know regardless what colour i dye , i'll still look beng... either alot or a little... haha went to reserve billy bombers then had our lunch at the food court, meet up with the rest then went to catch -a night at the museum-... funny show... not much content but worth the laugh... mm anyway we went to have our dinner then the gift exchange!!! haha so exciting... mm here's the link -connie-bei-yiwen-tian-beng-xinyu-mj-connie- and -peifen-me-xiying-justin-peifen... mm guessed my angel like yesterday le la... haha recieved a bodyshop cologne, toblerone, pictures, an envolope of dried petals small notes and letter... haha yupz all these stuff are her ideas for gifts for other people just that she use it on ME for dry run... lol... mm dinner le most left le then left me bei pf and connie... sat down at mac for a short chat before leaving too... haha took some pics on our way back...
tomorrow's boxing day although there isnt any gift for me to open this year, i still love this day more than christmas eve and christmas... haha mm maybe mahjong tomorrow... haha dunno... if not then i'll juz be slacking around at home then...
haiz time shoots like rockets... so fast everything has passed... and the new year's comin, the chi new year then getting our results then ns...
haiz its all gonna come so soon..
mm been speaking about confidence quite these few days...
haiz my new year resolution for dunno how many years le...
i wanna be more confident...
i know it does take some time... but i've been like trying for so long
and i dont seem to be improving...
i'm still of such low confidence... so much so that it scares me...
it stops me from doing what i can
and it makes me feel so weak and so hurt
that i'm so sick of it...
i wanna be confident
i wanna feel good...
but now i figured that i'm still so far away from what i want to achieve
even from changin so much from my sec sch...
i'm still so afriad of doing the wrong stuff and disappointing people...
haiz hope next year will be better...
haha next year's comin in less then a week's time...
well lets hope everything is so much better next year
so much better...
-rain keeps poring-
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